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[Yoohoo, hello there farm boy. Did you miss her?]
Hello there, Oscar.
It is Oscar, isn't it?
I just want to make sure I got your name right.
[She thinks she's soooo subtle. Blame Emerald for this one.]
Hello there, Oscar.
It is Oscar, isn't it?
I just want to make sure I got your name right.
[She thinks she's soooo subtle. Blame Emerald for this one.]
[This was... a surprise.]
You did.
I hadn't told you because I was always warned about getting too friendly with strangers. You're not friends with Ruby, so I didn't want to accidentally make more trouble.
[Then, after a moment:]
What's going on? There's a reason you looked me up like this.
You did.
I hadn't told you because I was always warned about getting too friendly with strangers. You're not friends with Ruby, so I didn't want to accidentally make more trouble.
[Then, after a moment:]
What's going on? There's a reason you looked me up like this.
Edited 2020-07-05 02:07 (UTC)
I believe I was one of the people to warn you about that.
But I thought I'd clear the air a tiny bit. Be clear on where we stand.
You know, since someone might have told me you've got a guest in your head.
Wanted to be clear what I should call you, first.
As for Ruby. Let's not worry about her for today.
I'm trying to keep my distance, figure that out.
This is about you and me.
You don't remember me from home do you?
But I thought I'd clear the air a tiny bit. Be clear on where we stand.
You know, since someone might have told me you've got a guest in your head.
Wanted to be clear what I should call you, first.
As for Ruby. Let's not worry about her for today.
I'm trying to keep my distance, figure that out.
This is about you and me.
You don't remember me from home do you?
...That was someone from home. The only one here who knows and isn't from home is a friend of Ruby's. He's smart-- smarter than I am, and probably smarter than He is too.
But no, I don't remember you. With everything that's happening in Atlas from when I left, it's probably safe to guess we met sometime in my future, in that city.
But no, I don't remember you. With everything that's happening in Atlas from when I left, it's probably safe to guess we met sometime in my future, in that city.
Yeah, well. I'm from Remnant too.
But I'm guessing you'd rather not talk about "that guy" in your head.
Yeah. Future for you. Present for me.
I've seen a few things, and I wanted to apologize for how we met.
Getting what I want may have put me on the wrong side of things.
And I'm starting to think it won't get me what I want in the end.
And I'm not sure what I wanted is what I want.
So. Sorry.
And if you want to know about how we met, I'll tell you.
But I'm guessing you'd rather not talk about "that guy" in your head.
Yeah. Future for you. Present for me.
I've seen a few things, and I wanted to apologize for how we met.
Getting what I want may have put me on the wrong side of things.
And I'm starting to think it won't get me what I want in the end.
And I'm not sure what I wanted is what I want.
So. Sorry.
And if you want to know about how we met, I'll tell you.
Let's just say that it's tricky. Sometimes I feel like people look at me expecting to see Him, but that hasn't happened at all since I've been here. It's nice, and I hope it lasts a while longer.
Usually when things have gone wrong for me since I started travelling with Ruby, it hasn't usually been for something I specifically did-- just who I'm with or what we might have. If that's the case, then it's probably nothing personal... right?
Usually when things have gone wrong for me since I started travelling with Ruby, it hasn't usually been for something I specifically did-- just who I'm with or what we might have. If that's the case, then it's probably nothing personal... right?
I never met him before he bit it, so I wouldn't know.
Knew him by reputation, not in person.
It was never personal with you.
You just had something I was told to get, so I got it.
You weren't permanently hurt.
The regret is doing it for Salem.
I don't think I care if she destroys everything.
I just don't feel like helping her do it.
Knew him by reputation, not in person.
It was never personal with you.
You just had something I was told to get, so I got it.
You weren't permanently hurt.
The regret is doing it for Salem.
I don't think I care if she destroys everything.
I just don't feel like helping her do it.
You're a nice kid.
No, I really don't.
Anything I ever cared about there is gone.
And if I don't remember any of this, I don't know that that's going to change.
But hey, might as well apologize to you while I have enough sense to think about it, right?
No, I really don't.
Anything I ever cared about there is gone.
And if I don't remember any of this, I don't know that that's going to change.
But hey, might as well apologize to you while I have enough sense to think about it, right?
For now, my cooperation is trying to keep my distance from Ruby wile I get my head on straight.
Trust me, that's a lot.
I know that it means the old man has a thousand bullshit tricks up his sleeve.
And I might have seen a certain someone who really doesn't like you in a friend's memories.
Two someones to be exact.
More than that? Cinder never clued me in on.
And I didn't care to find out, since I only wanted one thing.
Trust me, that's a lot.
I know that it means the old man has a thousand bullshit tricks up his sleeve.
And I might have seen a certain someone who really doesn't like you in a friend's memories.
Two someones to be exact.
More than that? Cinder never clued me in on.
And I didn't care to find out, since I only wanted one thing.
I'll take your word for it. I don't even know what to call you, so that's a little hard.
But, since we're talking honestly here, I'll tell you what I do know. Everyone who was close to Ozpin has suggested that I'll one day find that I won't be able to tell where I end and He begins.
This isn't helpful, and is actually scary. I didn't ask for any of this, but here we are...
...Although. I'm finding that a part of me doesn't want to return to Atlas. At least I know I have time to just be Me while we're here.
But, since we're talking honestly here, I'll tell you what I do know. Everyone who was close to Ozpin has suggested that I'll one day find that I won't be able to tell where I end and He begins.
This isn't helpful, and is actually scary. I didn't ask for any of this, but here we are...
...Although. I'm finding that a part of me doesn't want to return to Atlas. At least I know I have time to just be Me while we're here.
You're not in Atlas today.
Worry about Atlas when you're back in Atlas.
Keep yourself alive and try and enjoy what there is to enjoy.
That's been a hard lesson for me.
But I think it's a good idea.
Worry about Atlas when you're back in Atlas.
Keep yourself alive and try and enjoy what there is to enjoy.
That's been a hard lesson for me.
But I think it's a good idea.
You mean, trying not to feel bad about not wanting to
go back and just doing what we need to do here?
That's what I'm trying to do. This town isn't perfect, but it's not like we need to watch out for Grimm every time something happens. That's kind of a relief.
go back and just doing what we need to do here?
That's what I'm trying to do. This town isn't perfect, but it's not like we need to watch out for Grimm every time something happens. That's kind of a relief.
More or Less
I'm trying to convince myself to do that with Ruby.
I'm not sure if it's worked yet.
It's not a terrible town, ignoring the problems.
I just don't know what I have to live for here.
I'm trying to convince myself to do that with Ruby.
I'm not sure if it's worked yet.
It's not a terrible town, ignoring the problems.
I just don't know what I have to live for here.
I'm sure it will if you keep trying. Ruby is a good person. I don't know what happened beween you two, but maybe here the both of you will find a way to work through it.
But for your other problem... it sounds like you need to work through that yourself. I don't know anything about you besides your connection to Ruby, and I'm sorry that I don't know how to help you.
But for your other problem... it sounds like you need to work through that yourself. I don't know anything about you besides your connection to Ruby, and I'm sorry that I don't know how to help you.
Death happened, and like any fight, any war, you can't take back death.
Whether it felt justified to some, the one dead is important to me, and she can't bring him back.
So working through it means I have to decide if I can forgive her.
And she has to decide if she can forgive me for my hand in what led to us fighting that night in the first place.
I don't think you're the one to help there, no. No offense.
Whether it felt justified to some, the one dead is important to me, and she can't bring him back.
So working through it means I have to decide if I can forgive her.
And she has to decide if she can forgive me for my hand in what led to us fighting that night in the first place.
I don't think you're the one to help there, no. No offense.
Yeah, I'm not getting my advice from the dead headmaster.
I'd be more likely to take it on other things from a farmboy.
And for now, I've got my own sources.
Let's hope I can keep sane and away from Ruby this month.
I have a feeling something's up and it worries me.
I'd be more likely to take it on other things from a farmboy.
And for now, I've got my own sources.
Let's hope I can keep sane and away from Ruby this month.
I have a feeling something's up and it worries me.
Admitting that goes a long way.
I'm making arrangements.
If something goes wrong, I'm sorry.
I want to be in my right mind if we come to terms or blows.
I'm making arrangements.
If something goes wrong, I'm sorry.
I want to be in my right mind if we come to terms or blows.
Oscar.
If something happens, I will either have tried to murder Ruby again.
Or I will have successfully murdered her after going insane.
If you even give me the time of day after that.
I will be surprised.
And if you didn't, I'd understand.
If something happens, I will either have tried to murder Ruby again.
Or I will have successfully murdered her after going insane.
If you even give me the time of day after that.
I will be surprised.
And if you didn't, I'd understand.
I can't promise anything, but what you're saying right now is that, if the worst happens, it's not even something you can control.
Dying here... scares me. I can't imagine what it would be like for anyone. But, if you're still able to be this honest later? You will be far better than the many, many others who have hidden the truth from our world for generations.
Dying here... scares me. I can't imagine what it would be like for anyone. But, if you're still able to be this honest later? You will be far better than the many, many others who have hidden the truth from our world for generations.
I hope that is the case.
I hope more that I can stay away for a month so I can talk to her with a clear head.
Well, as much as I ever talk to anyone.
Look, this has been a mostly good chat.
But I've had my emotional fill for the day.
Watch your back out there, kid.
I hope more that I can stay away for a month so I can talk to her with a clear head.
Well, as much as I ever talk to anyone.
Look, this has been a mostly good chat.
But I've had my emotional fill for the day.
Watch your back out there, kid.
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