For now, my cooperation is trying to keep my distance from Ruby wile I get my head on straight. Trust me, that's a lot.
I know that it means the old man has a thousand bullshit tricks up his sleeve. And I might have seen a certain someone who really doesn't like you in a friend's memories. Two someones to be exact.
More than that? Cinder never clued me in on. And I didn't care to find out, since I only wanted one thing.
I'll take your word for it. I don't even know what to call you, so that's a little hard.
But, since we're talking honestly here, I'll tell you what I do know. Everyone who was close to Ozpin has suggested that I'll one day find that I won't be able to tell where I end and He begins.
This isn't helpful, and is actually scary. I didn't ask for any of this, but here we are...
...Although. I'm finding that a part of me doesn't want to return to Atlas. At least I know I have time to just be Me while we're here.
You mean, trying not to feel bad about not wanting to go back and just doing what we need to do here?
That's what I'm trying to do. This town isn't perfect, but it's not like we need to watch out for Grimm every time something happens. That's kind of a relief.
I'm sure it will if you keep trying. Ruby is a good person. I don't know what happened beween you two, but maybe here the both of you will find a way to work through it.
But for your other problem... it sounds like you need to work through that yourself. I don't know anything about you besides your connection to Ruby, and I'm sorry that I don't know how to help you.
Death happened, and like any fight, any war, you can't take back death. Whether it felt justified to some, the one dead is important to me, and she can't bring him back. So working through it means I have to decide if I can forgive her. And she has to decide if she can forgive me for my hand in what led to us fighting that night in the first place.
I don't think you're the one to help there, no. No offense.
And no offense is taken. I've had too many people leaning on me for advice I can't give-- because they're looking for advice from someone who isn't there. Honestly? It's tiring.
Yeah, I'm not getting my advice from the dead headmaster. I'd be more likely to take it on other things from a farmboy. And for now, I've got my own sources.
Let's hope I can keep sane and away from Ruby this month. I have a feeling something's up and it worries me.
I can't promise anything, but what you're saying right now is that, if the worst happens, it's not even something you can control.
Dying here... scares me. I can't imagine what it would be like for anyone. But, if you're still able to be this honest later? You will be far better than the many, many others who have hidden the truth from our world for generations.
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...if you know about my house guest, I'm going to guess that you know what that means, too.
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Trust me, that's a lot.
I know that it means the old man has a thousand bullshit tricks up his sleeve.
And I might have seen a certain someone who really doesn't like you in a friend's memories.
Two someones to be exact.
More than that? Cinder never clued me in on.
And I didn't care to find out, since I only wanted one thing.
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But, since we're talking honestly here, I'll tell you what I do know. Everyone who was close to Ozpin has suggested that I'll one day find that I won't be able to tell where I end and He begins.
This isn't helpful, and is actually scary. I didn't ask for any of this, but here we are...
...Although. I'm finding that a part of me doesn't want to return to Atlas. At least I know I have time to just be Me while we're here.
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Worry about Atlas when you're back in Atlas.
Keep yourself alive and try and enjoy what there is to enjoy.
That's been a hard lesson for me.
But I think it's a good idea.
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go back and just doing what we need to do here?
That's what I'm trying to do. This town isn't perfect, but it's not like we need to watch out for Grimm every time something happens. That's kind of a relief.
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I'm trying to convince myself to do that with Ruby.
I'm not sure if it's worked yet.
It's not a terrible town, ignoring the problems.
I just don't know what I have to live for here.
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But for your other problem... it sounds like you need to work through that yourself. I don't know anything about you besides your connection to Ruby, and I'm sorry that I don't know how to help you.
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Whether it felt justified to some, the one dead is important to me, and she can't bring him back.
So working through it means I have to decide if I can forgive her.
And she has to decide if she can forgive me for my hand in what led to us fighting that night in the first place.
I don't think you're the one to help there, no. No offense.
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And no offense is taken. I've had too many people leaning on me for advice I can't give-- because they're looking for advice from someone who isn't there. Honestly? It's tiring.
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I'd be more likely to take it on other things from a farmboy.
And for now, I've got my own sources.
Let's hope I can keep sane and away from Ruby this month.
I have a feeling something's up and it worries me.
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I'm happy to tell you anything helpful, but advice is hard when I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. Not that any of us do.
Especially here. Something does seem up and I'm worried too.
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I'm making arrangements.
If something goes wrong, I'm sorry.
I want to be in my right mind if we come to terms or blows.
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I don't know you, but I appreciate your honesty. Is there anything you need me to do in case something happens?
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If something happens, I will either have tried to murder Ruby again.
Or I will have successfully murdered her after going insane.
If you even give me the time of day after that.
I will be surprised.
And if you didn't, I'd understand.
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Dying here... scares me. I can't imagine what it would be like for anyone. But, if you're still able to be this honest later? You will be far better than the many, many others who have hidden the truth from our world for generations.
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I hope more that I can stay away for a month so I can talk to her with a clear head.
Well, as much as I ever talk to anyone.
Look, this has been a mostly good chat.
But I've had my emotional fill for the day.
Watch your back out there, kid.
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If you need to chat more later, you know where to find me.